Things were going so good and what did I do? I started in on my H again last night. Saying vile things to him and now he's apprehensive about me moving home. Maybe I'm just fooling myself. Maybe he's right. Maybe I'll never get over this and I need to break from this M and start my life over. I'm very scared! I know that I can live alone, but I'm not sure that I would want to live without him in my life. Why do I keep doing this? It does not serve any purpose for continuing to badger him and I know it! I know that I need to let it go, but why can't I? Please, please, give me some advise. My movers are coming on Thursday and I'm not sure we're ready for this. My H is so P**** off at me right now, I'm not sure that he's not thinking about leaving me.
Am I just hanging on because I'm scared or am I holding on to make sure he gets his just punishment? Am I holding on because I love him? What's the deal here? I do know this, he can't take much more!
