I've been very positive for so long and now, I feel as though I'm at the end of my journey and decision time is at hand. I'm going home at the end of this month, but I'm scared to death. On the one hand, I feel this is what needs to happen to totally rebuild my M and then on the other hand, I feel as though I'm giving in to my strong moral core values and it confuses the hell out of me. I love my H, he is my very best friend, but I still have terrible moments of second guessing. I know I shouldn't do this but it still is very heavy - I was married 3 years to my H, after 1 year of M, he had a relationship with someone 20 years younger than him for 1 1/2 years, and we've been separated for almost a year. Not much of M, huh? I'm not young, 47 to be exact, and sometimes I feel as though I'm just wasting precious time. I know my H is truely sorry, remorseful, and would give anything to have not done what he did. What's going on with me? HELP, Anyone?
