It is incredible how far I've come... I've been separated now for 10 months... but now I look at what's best for me. ME! Selfish? No, I don't think so.
Hi Gwyn! I think perhaps your separation, its "alone" time, has afforded you opportunity to focus on yourself and reclaim yourself, finding your center from where you now deal with life. You've come such a long way, and I'm happy for you and proud of you.
I keep my thoughts positive but like all of you, I struggle with thoughts of a better life.
PMA doesn't erase struggles, or sadness, but as I think you know, what it does is have you choose to see the positives instead of dwelling on negatives.
A life that doesn't quite take this kind of work. A life that doesn't have to keep feeding yourself all the positives and not the negatives. You see, it is a constant battle within myself and sometimes it drains every bit of my energy. I'm hoping my decision will be the right one for me.
Such is life. In every decision, there are pros and cons. There aren't many perfect decisions, it isn't a perfect world. It may just be matter of continuing to try things and see what of those things work for you. The 'constant battle' within yourself may be a signal to find other ways to handle those inner conflicts, as it sounds that some of how you may be going about it drains your emotional energy. Have you read "Feeling Good - The New Mood Therapy" by David Burns? That may give you a handle on how to better process feelings and thoughts.
