I have a concern that someone may be able to give some advise on.
My H seems to becoming more and more depressed as Christmas becomes nearer. He told me the other day that his new year resolution was to spend more time with his borther and sister and try to rebuild that relationship. I reminded him that "blood was pretty thick" but he said it wasn't that, his integrity and respect is shot to hell. He also said that he didn't know what to do for my kids at Christmas. He normally gets them a present but this year he didn't think they would want anything from him and he said that he couldn't blame them. He said that he wished he could go back in time because he would do things so much different. I just listened but I can tell he is dealing with a whole range of emotions.
Also, one other thing. He said in our MC session last week that he was a little concerned about "us" running into some of our friends that may ask a lot of questions or something may happen in which he has no control over and cause us to take a leap backwards. What do you all think this means? Do you think the OW is starting to lurk out there again and he's scared that I'll find out about it. I do know (because he told me) that she is starting to call his office and hang up as soon as he answers the phone. I know I cannot help him with any of this as he certainly made his bed, but I do feel a little (not much) sorry for him. He is realizing the devastation that he has caused in so many lives. I think he is having a hard time living with himself. He aslo said he could not understand why I loved him. If he were me, he wouldn't love him. Any adivse?
