Weekend was good. I stayed at the house, me and H went shopping for our Thanksgiving dinner, had dinner with my mom, everything pretty normal. Then today, I feel like crap, wondering why I'm with this man, a man who hurt me beyond words. Is this part of the roller coaster? After all this time and after all the positives that are happening in my M, should I still have questions? Should I still feel hurt? Is this normal? I sometimes feel as though my H is getting off pretty easy. I know that's wrong thinking and very destructive, but he suffered very little consequences. I hate feeling this way, and I'm trying to redirect my "self-talk" but you know, sometimes it's easier that other times.
