Update. I spent the night at my home last night. It probably was the best night sleep that I've had in months. I haven't brought up the A in weeks and things are moving forward much faster now that I've decided to keep my emotions in check.
I don't know if our M will survive the A, but I'm more optimistic now than I have been in the past. My H is really trying and for the first time, so am I. I still think about his betrayal but I am trying to filter these thoughts with more positive thoughts. It isn't easy but I'm doing the best I can and I'm holding on! I guess that's all that I can do for now. I'm looking for a happier future and frankly, I look at my future with my H rather than without him. The OW seems to have faded away. She moved away and it seems that she has now stopped calling him (for awhile she would call and hang up when he answered). My H is still dealing with his emotions. He has lost more than I can ever dream of losing. With his actions, he has lost his position in church, respect, admiration and lost a little of me. He had so much love from me and now it is more of a cautious love. I don't know how to explain it but our R is much different. Maybe it will grow into something better - time will tell.
Anyway, I'm more positive these days and my temper is well under repair.
