Update. H spent the night with me last night. We had a good dinner, went for a walk, got up this morning and watched the news while we drank our coffee. Things seemed so normal. He told me last night that "he loved me". Things are changing and for the good. All of your advise has paid off. I'm controlling myself and H is coming around. He asked me if we could change places, me live in the house and he in the apt. I started laughing and jokingly said to him that you're the one that wanted space and you have plenty of it. I'm in a one bedroom apt. and he is in 3000 sq.ft. home. That's a lot of space! He just chuckled. We really are starting to enjoy each others company right now and he even asked me if I had plans for the weekend. Here it is the front end of the week and he wants to make plans in advance. This is new!
Things are moving in a more positive direction in the R, but I still am taking my time. When I'm ready, I think, for the first time, I'll know it.
I'm still hurt beyond words but as everyone said, it isn't as intense as it was in the beginning. I am starting to heal. I feel it in my heart. I have a long way to go but I have nothing but time and I plan on using the time to my advantage.
