Luckily, I have now started to see an actual psychiatrist who is very professional. She took the time to diagnose me, and she also ordered a whole bunch of tests to check on possible physical causes. I now know that I actually do have clinical depression, and that it is treatable, and she prescribed me a new medication, which she is monitoring. She did say the other meds I was taking were bad for my case, and that the doctor who gave them to me had no clue. Fantastic! o.O
I will be starting to take the new medication tonight. I am very hopeful that finally medically treating the depression will bring back the person I was 5 years ago, and with that my sex drive.
I have to say my HD husband has been wonderful. This whole thing is extremely difficult for him, and he's not always perfect, but he's hopeful too. The other day we actually did have sex (for the first time in like, 6 weeks) - it didn't shake my world or anything, but I caught a glimpse of that feeling of togetherness that it brings, which I am missing so much, and he was so grateful because I spent a lot of time making him feel good. So, if I can now manage to get my body back in there... yeah, hopeful.
