Thanks GEL for not getting on my case. : ) Here are your answers:
Why have you stayed in this M like this for 15yrs? I don't know. He is the kind of guy that people would think I was crazy for leaving. I don't think we ever had any chemistry. I always try to make the best out a bad situation. I guess I'm done putting up with it.
Why are you just now going to go to a MC? Because the sitch is affecting the kids - they are acting out. They need to have 2 loving parents to make them feel secure and that's not happening here. What type of work does your H do (just general)? Finanicial stuff. He does not make a lot (surprisingly) but he is very dedicated to the job. What is your H's background like? Parents divorced when he was almost an adult, they are friendly towards each other. The family is not a warm, loving one. What do you want out of your M? I want to be madly in love with someone. I want a passionate relationship. I want to feel like I am loved. If it's not going to happen in the M, maybe I can find it somewhere else? What do you hope to achieve in MC? To sort out these feelings and this situation. I don't think he gets it - and yes - we have talkd about this. He knows how I feel. i think he knows I have one foot out the door. He has initiated ML since the talk. There has been no affection outside of the bedroom
