Sometimes I think you're fighting it just to prove to him that he's wrong. Does that make sense? He thinks you're going to stray, to leave him. You want to fight harder to stay just to prove him wrong. I've seen how hard this has been on you. I feel for you, I really do....
You know, when we were talking about the crying unexpectedly, my counselor once told me I should take time for a massage, but to be aware that I might start crying, just for the reasons we've talked about, having someone touch us, caring for us, releasing all the tension and ugliness.....I never went just for that reason, I was afraid to be a sobbing heap on the massage table....I should have gotten the massage
Take care Heather.
Each experience in life has formed me, become part of me, made me stronger.
