After D2 got over her flu, S5 got it. And guess who got it right after that?! I wish I could say I'm back to 100%, but I'm just not. Worst part is definitely over, but am still feeling weak, tired and sore. Oh yeah, and sorry for myself. Can't forget that! It was just really, really hard to care for the kids while I was sick and it got me thinking that H has hardly ever been there for me when I've been sick, he's almost always been out of town. I just want to know he cares, ya know? For ME, not just because of the impact my sickness is having on the kids. Oh well, can't get blood from a turnip I guess. I just need to accept things as they are.
My feelings are causing problems for me though. As usual when emotions get involved!! I'm hurt that he didn't express much concern for me. When I'm hurt, I get angry. It makes it difficult to exercise patience with the path my M seems to be on. It makes me want to move back into my bed and say @@ck you. Of course, none of that would be good for my M.
I know we all get restless with the seemingly snail's pace in which these situations seem to operate. I guess I'm feeling it today.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
