Learning to trust myself III

[heatherg]

Hey all, hope everyone is having a good weekend. I'm feeling particularly good today!

It's probably true that hatred is not the opposite of love....I can see where love and hate get very close to that thin line as one starts to all of a sudden dislike and eventually hate the same qualities in someone that they initially loved.

The qualities in my H that I hate are his drinking habits, his reluctance to communicate (for instance just sitting and doing nothing while I clean instead of telling me he's had a rough day and would prefer to relax tonight), his disrepect for me which is displayed multiple ways, his double standards, his refusal to treat our marriage as though it is a priority in his life and his lack of support of me as a mother. That about sums it up I think. Do you see any positve there? I'll keep looking.

In the meantime, I started running this week. I've known I need to get active again. It's funny, well not really, but I've only gained 7 lbs in the last 5 years and had two kids within those 5 years. Not too bad if I say so myself. However, my muscle tone isn't what it used to be and when I run, I jiggle in places that didn't used to jiggle. Yikes. So, I need to do something about that for sure, lol. I feel much better already and it's only been 4 days!!

MIL offered to watch the kids last night so I could go to karate. That felt good. It was a very active class with lots of stretching, jumps, rolls, kicks, push ups and sit ups. Then today I made banana bread and am just sitting around the house playing with the kiddy cats. Tonight we go to get our pumpkins and we'll probably go get ice cream after that.

I hope most of you out there are feeling as great as I am today!! Love you guys!