it seems you are having sex with him while he has no respect for you.
In the 5 Love Languages book, Physical Touch is a love language. I think that your feelings about this all depends on how you look at it. Is Physical Touch one of H's LL? When you engage in this physical act, are you doing so because you are showing him that you love him? Are you making love w/him? Are you sharing yourself w/him? Or, is it all for just the physical feeling and the big O?
Your motivation may help you to resolve your feelings.
Sounds like things are turning around a bit. Keep the faith and stay the course!
