Sorry to hear you're in a downward swing right now. Sometimes I feel like when you go numb (have the blahs) it's almost worse than sadness or anger. It's a sense of helplessness and defeat. You must feel backed into a corner by Matt and out of fighting energy. I think I know you well enough to say that it will be back... your body is just processing so much emotion right now.
I would highly recommend the meditation thing. Introducing it into my life has been a real blessing. It's nice to learn that you do have a safe place to feel everything without shame or judgement, and that place is within yourself, and therefore travels with you throughout your day.
I come across as demure and innocent and people would be shocked to learn that I can swear like a sailor.
Me too. I expect people to be shocked, but somehow most seem to find it 'adorable'. Although, one of my best friends once told me that I'm so sweet and delightful that she would have bought a gun and shot me years ago if she didn't know that I was bitter underneath it all. Uh, thanks, I think.
This has probably been a weird post, full of unformed thoughts.
