Thanks for responding, Kismet. Yes, I am looking at some new hobbies. Right now I go to yoga once a week and sing in a community choir that practices once a week. I also take a ceramics class occasionally for credit to move up the pay scale at work. Tomorrow I'm taking a knitting class, and I'm learning about meditation. My problem is more on the weekends than any other time since school hs started again, so that's where I'm trying to focus. I want to find some kind of exercise that is exhausting so I can vent, something like kickboxing. Yoga just doesn't cut it in that sense! I am trying to see this experience as an opportunity for me to rediscover myself, and on my good days, I'm somewhat successful. I definitely have to put my energy into myself right now and not rely on him. Intellectuallly I know this. Emotionally...let's just say I'm learning.
