amd, I think you need to fill up your own life, so that you are not so dependent on H's state of mind. Work on yourself. Get new hobbies. This will help with your PMA, and get you on the road to detaching.
Any form of exercise is great for PMA. Is there anything fun that you have always wanted to do, but never had the courage? Salsa dancing, Belly dancing? This is your time now.
It's not easy, but we all ride this rollercoaster together.
