Guys, I just really don't want to be here; I am so unhappy. I've had 4 years of misery and I can't take anymore
I just got in with all these thoughts running through my head, and I'm tired, I'm just so tired. Then I thought I might still be pregnant so I am trying to hold it together.
I can't even begin to write about my day, it's just too painful. I just want to go to sleep and not have to think about it anymore
Bruce, I did see your question on the dream. I will answer, I promise, when I feel more normal. I wish Andy's dad would just take me with him
I have never felt this bad in 2 and a half years.
And all my life will ever be is more BS. I've had nothing but BS since I was 24.
This is it now; I have to let go of my kids as well or I will just die. I can't take the pain anymore.
I will just pretend that all it ever was, was me and Alicia.
