Ugh

Just when I'd resolved not to help him, my DD2 runs through the door saying how happy she is I'm going to 'her' house

I didn't know what to say to her. DD4 was doing this vocabulary Builder thing so DD2 went off with her to do that, and Andy asked to use my bathroom. I said yes.

After he came out, I said to him that I think he should just bring the kids here to me instead of me going there. After what he said about 'his' children, I just don't want to - but DD2 has been wanting me to go there for the last 2 years and I never will.

In fact, all the kids have and Andy keeps trying to invite me over for a 'cup of tea' - I mean, not recently, but he did do repeatedly in the past. I think recently he has given up the idea that I would go there.

He said to me that he 'didn't mind having me' and started being all reasonable and nice, and offered to pick me up from the bus station, despite last nights argument. Then DD2 was looking at me and saying she wants to see me tomorrow and underneath I was thinking, 'why? Your HIS child.' But of course I didn't say that.

I just smiled at her. It isn't her fault.

Then Andy had the nerve to ask to borrow DD4's Vocabulary Builder as you can change it to Spanish and the other DD's learn Spanish. I said yes but I would get it back tomorrow so he'd have to record it this evening. I think given what he said to me last night, he's got some cheek asking to borrow my stuff.

Then he said
'You look sombre today' (Oh, I wonder why? I'm just the incubator but never mind. I was having nightmares all night and then up with sickness, but yeah, I feel wonderful!).

I just nodded at him and said nothing.

Then DD2 flung her arms around me and said she loved me, and they left.

I wish I hadn't offered to help him, now. I am so angry at what he said to me, I can't get passed it.

Jo.