Hi Jill

DD4 is okay about going to him. She used to hate it and scream the house down. In fact the first time she went to his, he had to pull her out of my arms, sobbing. I cried every week, it was awful, but thankfully after about 2 months she got to like going there.

She loves playing with her sisters round there and enjoys the home ed stuff he does with her. She doesn't like it much if her sisters come here, though. She's very territorial of me and her house, won't let me kiss them or hug them, says 'that's MY mummy' etc.

I tried to explain I am their mummy too but she just says 'no'. Doesn't want to share her toys. She's happy enough if they come and play for a few hours but on the times I have tried to have them overnight, she just cries. She's a bit spoiled really, from being the 'only' child I have with me.

Assuming I am pregnant (nearly 16 days over, blood test tomorrow to find out), I would actually rather have another girl.

The reason being, girls names are nicer, their clothes are nicer, I know how to look after a girl because I've done it before, I don't have a clue how to change a boy's diaper, my sister told me that baby boys spray everywhere and have tiny erections and that makes me feel weird.
They grow into men and I feel over-awed at the idea of mothering a man.

However, if I am pregnant and if it comes out with a little winkle, I will love it the same as if it was a girl, and I'm sure I will get the hang of the diapers!

Andy doesn't want a baby. He'd hate the idea full stop and will probably blot it out the whole pregnancy, but when it's born he'll be okay. I know he would have liked a son so he'd prefer a boy, once he gets used to the idea.
He might be a little clingy over a boy.

I think it will be female, though, because of the pink bootie dream and him saying 'here is our DD' in that nightmare.

Jo.