You've fought long and hard, and I also respect your right to stop DBing. I did notice that your focus on XH had grown over the past month, with more reactivity than in the past (vs. controlling your mood, thoughts with GAL stuff). Believe me, I know how difficult it is.
I thought I read that you were quitting on your DDs as well. I hope that's not the case, as they are innocent victims in this D, and deserve access to you as their mother.
Maybe going dark for a break will help you to answer that last question. Be gentle with yourself, Jo.
