I have begged H to wash my back, over and over.....
So once, since it was Sunday and he just woke from a mid day nap, he went into the master bath (showerstall) and then said "hello" and went down stairs. He said, "hello" as he was on the stairwell.
Well, I can't beg anymore, he doesnt appreciate touch and I even think this is an uncomfortable sacrifice for him. I have "shut down" and not writhed and slithered under the soapsuds. Just happy for a cleanly scrubbed back for he objects to me acting as I've gotten turned on in the least.
S0---I bark at him, "You NEVER have to wash my back again!" Actually there was some truth to that. The defeat hurt as much as trying to get him to come to bed. I lessened things just to a bit of touch and got so frustrated that he couldn't muster that. But, this was a challenge ATTENTION this is a challenge! He was suposed to remember it this well so that he could rise to the challenge some time in the future. Its been 6 months. He seems relieved that the last "obligation" of the marriage has been satisfied/removed from him.
DAMN!
(yes, I'm recently out of the tub, gardening most of the day and it started to rain, it was a relaxing moment when nothing was scheduled and how I was reminded that he would not address the situation. I had a new bottle of shampoo, climbing the stairs to the tub when he says he's going to go to the basement and glue a plastic tub, hopefully it will save it from running.
Talk about the 5 LL's! Can you say service? I asked him to repair the tub. It's not personal. There is no chance for interaction.
I'm dying in an emotional sence.
So, anyhow, when a gal says not to do something ever, it may be a challenge, it may be an ultimatum too, like never drink again, but it may be a challenge....damn.
Pity me that the heart is slow to learn
What the swift mind beholds at every turn.
Edna St. Vincent Millay
