Thanks Chrissy. I hope all goes well too. H just called to let me know he was on his way home and even said the L word. I keep promising myself to walk softly and just be greatful that right now he is almost acting normal. I see the C on Monday for my one on one. I actually am looking forward to that. Finally be able to get everything off my chest so to speak. I do a pretty good job at that here too. I am just wondering how to proceed. Move forward with out this thing in the back of mind messing everything up. You know the one that says he did this twice, it could happen again. It is a trust that was broken and I guess you can not gain that back overnight. I am really jumping ahead here and just need to focus on here and now to see how everything finally works out. Baby steps right? I guess I need to remember I am not running a race here. Somedays I just would like to fast forward through the rough stuff and find out what the ending is. But I guess this is life and not TiVo.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
