Chrissy, Thank you for your comments. While I do not know all of you sitch, it does sound a bit simular, only role reversal. I am trying to not beat myself up too much, but sometimes it feel like... I am afraid to say that or behave like that. Don't want to make waves of any kind. Add fuel to the fire. Walking on broken glass. And then at the same time it is hard not to share that I am hurting here too. We do not yell or argue or anything like that. Sometimes I wish that we did. Surpressed emotions on both parts. He does not like dealing with emotional issues and I am an emotional person trying to be what he says he wants. I did not just become the person that takes everything to heart, worries about everyone and thing yesterday. He married and fell in love with that person. That is nothing new for me. He was not always as emotionally absent as he is now. He would not be what I describe as a very intimate or romantic man, but has had his moments. I am just trying to figure out my next step. Unfortunately I feel all the lights are all out and I am afraid that I might step in sh*t if I am not careful.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
