Threw it out on the table. Knew I did not want to know the answer. The one time in my life I did not want to be right. I am going to go have a good cry and beat myself up emotionally because I know I will. I'll be back in a little while after I can make sense of anything. Right now nothing to me makes sense. Nothing. I am so emotionally spent right now. Not handling any of this too well right now. I am sure I will need to vent in a couple of hours after I get a grip. God for my own sanity I have to figure this out.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
