Well I can not post on my original thread so I guess I have to start a new one. bf I understand what you said. I do know that it is not something that will change or be fixed immediately. I am also not looking for false hope, guess I am just looking for hope. It was an early night for me last night. Friends daughter ill. I still went out and had a couple of beers with friends. But then the conversation turned toward us and I just was not really in the mood to talk about it so I came home. Tonight not really much better I guess. It is this late and I am still up. Just clearing my head I guess. Even though we are still getting some of the after effects of the hurricane I still can not seem to be able to sleep right now. Soon I am sure. Still wondering if I am even doing the right thing.Maybe I should just detach and say bye. When you figure it out come and see me. Maybe I will still be here...or not. I hate feeling like I am fighting for a lost cause. Well next therapist appt. is on Mon. It has been 2 weeks since the last since they were out of town. I do not even know what to say at this point.

Last edited by my_rollercoaster_ride; 09/25/05 05:01 AM.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.