Yes Sam, it is very sad and hard. I have extreme guilt and I feel the pain of what I've done everyday. The pain has faded with time, however, I dont think it will ever completely go away. For some reason I have been having dreams about him everynight and it is triggering me again.
I guess if he were happy and planning a wedding I would have a much easier time moving on. Maybe not easier, but would force myself to move on and let him be happy. I guess I am questioning myself b/c I am moving 3000 away next year and when I leave I doubt I will have any contact at all.
