Thanks la_esperanza for your advice. I know it is hard to give advice in my situation. It is in inner battle I struggle with everyday. I think that I have learned from my mistakes and I am confident this will never happen again in future relationships. I dont think I can contact him directly. I may just feel things out with my SIL.
KML - I came here for support and advice, not to be bashed for what I had done. I am verywell aware of what I did to ruin my marriage and have to live with that everyday. But, to say that it is my fault he chose to leave for OW is entirely wrong. He made his own decisions, noone forced him to do that.
One of the reason I stopped coming to this webside was b/c there was alot of bashing instead of understanding. I was hoping that things had changed but apparantly not.
