At Least We Have A Plan

[arjnex]

Greeneyedlass, I will try, but I didn't consider what I said to be a "self-defeatist" attitude, merely a statement of fact. I did wait until just 3 days before October started to mention it to her, and if I had waited those extra three days (which would have been very easy for me to do), then, yes, that would constitute a screw-up. But I did manage to talk to her, so, as it turns out, I did not screw up. Maybe "almost screwed up" was too harsh; maybe a more precise term would be "avoided screwing up." I should remember to choose my words more carefully.

Anyhow, I spoke to my wife about the plan again, briefly, this evening. I suggested that we wait until she was through with her course of antibiotics for her current ailment before beginning the plan. (She saw the doctor last Wednesday with some sort of stomach bug, and hadn't really improved by Friday, so he prescribed Cipro for her. Seeing as how this is the same stuff they prescribe for anthrax victims, I thought the meds might have an untoward effect on her. But she's only going to be taking them for another two days, which puts us still within that "first week of October" window.)

She agreed with me, not criticizing, not even making any comment other than, "Yeah, that's probably a good idea."

Okay, now I have a question. The manner in which she's spoken to me about the plan, in both instances, gives me an impression that she'd like me to take charge of the plan implementation. That is, some night after her antibiotics are finished, she might want me to just say to her, "Okay, tonight's the night," and we go into the bedroom, strip down, and carry out the first encounter. She might be thinking, "Well, I proposed it, now it's up to him to carry it out." Is this likely? Should I stick my neck out on this?

I don't have any real doubts that she will go through with it; after all, it was her that brought it up. I didn't see the program she watched to get the idea; she could have simply never mentioned it to me, and I would be none the wiser. But I need a "reality check" on my impressions; I don't trust my own instincts enough yet.

- "A"