The job is part time working on a farm in the market area. During pumpkin season the schools bring kids to tour the farm/petting zoo and such. Then on the weekends familys come for hayrides and petting zoo. It has a fresh food/country gift market and I am working in that area. Not quite what I am used to as in a job. But I use to have a small farm so that part is easy for me. It pays squat but just trying to get some desire back to do something anything at this point. I have had to convince myself to get up and go every day so far. But every day I do go is a small victory for me right now. I know that sounds silly. But I have been drained of drive to do things for months now. Always thinking of the hassel it may cause has just made me sit around and do nothing and even loose the want to.
I agree with you saving up just in case. I to have been trying to do this. I had given my mom 500.00 over the course of a few months when I was still getting unemployment just in case I had to leave real quick. But my older sister drained me of about 300.00 of that. I have tried to stash anything I can spare since but have not gained much wealth lol. Something always comes up. I figure if life takes a heck of a turn and things get better here well my H and I can take a vacation on what ever I have nested away later. Better safe then sorry though.
I am really sorry that things are so bad for you right now. I hate that you worked so hard to get your desire up only to have this now between you and your H.
