I feel so honored, I just got my first thread locked up. Can someone tell me how to link the old thread to this one? I can't seem to find the URL.
Anyway,
Karen, blackie, and Chrissy,
Thank you for your responses. H is going out of his way to be nice and I am being nice, too. I have just lost something and don't know how to get it back. I don't have any desire to try to fix this for him.
H is resentful about my not working (which by the way, I have obtained gainful, full time employment at my local Meijer baking cookies and decorating cakes. My kids are jazzed. I start Monday bright and early.) So problem solved.
I planned on spending this week catering to H's every fantasy, since he was on vacation and the kids were in school, instead I hit the pavement looking for a job. I can't concieve ML with him with this ugliness hanging like an impenatrable fog between us. He is behaving like a man who regrets what he has said, but is unwilling to bring up the subject and talk about it. I am not going to bring it up, this is for him to do. It isn't about trying to make him suffer.
I attended the funeral of a neighbor's wife yesterday. There were so many people there, they had to bring in extra chairs and there was still standing room only. The woman who died touched a lot of people. I was thinking that life is fleeting and my thoughts turned to what is going on with my H and I. Am I being foolish or stubborn by waiting for him to be ready to broach the subject himself?
I don't mind the sun sometime
The images it shows
I can taste you on my lips
And smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and Sugar
And softly spoken lies
You never know just how you look
Through someone elses eyes
BHS-"Pepper"