Hey RC,
A lot of the things that he says are going to be painful, confusing, and make you think you are crazy or were completely mistaken about the past.

Its pretty much impossible to ignore those hurtful comments from someone who is so important in your life, so for yourself try to tune them out. If it is outside the MC dont ask, why, what you can do, etc. Save it for the MC.

Even though we all screw up, when the OP is intentionally vicious, and unkind, it is not neccesary to take it, or internalize it.
That conquer statement comes from feeling inadequate and trying to get up. Your H doesnt like himself right now. That is his problem.

He isnt taking care of you right now, so you need to do it yourself. Hang out here, hangout with friends, do healthy things that make you happy. I am a big proponent of exercise. Go for a walk, and listen to music. Its the perfect excuse to go get a iPod nano! Healthy means, no affairs, no drugs, no jumping off of bridges without a bungie cord. purchasing jaguars, or motorcycles, is (maybe).