I did and definately enjoyed myself. I forgot what it felt like to really enjoy myself. Had a few beers and talked and laughed and even heard a few good joke. My H called me when I was on my way out. Since I did not answer the home phone. I am always home after work. He had just picked up my stepson and was on his way home, wanted to know if he could pick me up something to eat since he was stopping to get something for himself and son. That was thoughtful. I just told him no but thanks for offering. He asked where I was since I did not answer the phone at home. Told him I was meeting a couple of friends for a beer and I would be home later. his reply was Oh? well okay then. When I got home about 9 I could see the old jealousy look in his eyes even though he did not say anything. We had our 15 minute therapy time and he was very quiet. He just said he had alot on his mind. I tryed to remain upbeat and positive. Very hard for me to do these days of doom and gloom. It just seems like we have repeats of the same conversations over and over again. He continues to completely baffle me. Am I going about all of this wrong? I did try posting on the midlife forum but I did not get any responses. I really need advice. I am just so unsure of everything right now.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
