I am so over this. This man is driving me insane. I love him sooooo much. I wish I did'nt. I am not sure that I can even continue to put myself through this. I just wish that something would make sense. I just want to be happy... Is that so bad? I know I just need to be happy with myself first. I think I need to just tell him to figure this out and maybe I will still be here when he does or maybe not. We don't have another couseling session for another week. I think by then it will only be me because I don't really believe he wants to try to work things out. I guess doing the 180 is in my best interests right now.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
