I am just hurting really bad right now. I don't know where to go and it seems like no matter what I do it does not matter. db, maybe you are right. I have to do this for myself. Hell I don't know right now. Lost is the only word I have for the way I feel. I know I am in a place I do not want to be. I just can't seem to figure out where that place is. My H apologized tonight for wht happened last night. I guess I am glad for that, but what if I would have done what he wanted? How would he feel now? I am so confused. I am trying so hard to save my marriage that I don't even know what the right thing to do is right now.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
