Believe I am trying. If I did not love this man It would be so much easier. But I do and I am trying to do whatever I can to save our R. I know this will not help in my heart. However, he keeps insisting that it will. Last night scared me beyond belief. I know I am not okay with this. I love sex with my husband and I do wish it was more often, however I am not sure that this can possibly help. I am just afraid of what this will do to us and to me.My life sucks right now. I am trying to figure out how to deal with this and I am pretty sure I am dealing with it poorly.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
