It is hard to get a clear picture of what is going on in your sitch. You are speaking about one aspect but alluding to there being many other issue that do not relate to this sexual fantasy. I am thinking if you would like more solid advice or insight and support you may need to tell the whole of the story not just a aspect of it.
Maybe it is just me that feels there is something other then this going on. I just see you state how discouraged you are and dismayed and stating it is not just about the sex fantasy but giving no other info for people to base any form of support on. You may want to put it all out there. We are in cyber land you are a faceless person to us as we are to you. Relax we wont be seeing you in the grocery store saying omg thats rollercoaster. You are safe here to say what is going on. Say how you feel say what hurts what pisses you off the whole deal.
