Right now Jak, I just feel lost. I do not have any other words for it. I have been on this rollercoaster for alot longer than I wanted to be just because I do love this man. I am so trying to be patient and do what ever I can. Including considering this fantasy if that will truly make him happy. This just sucks... my life sucks pretty much right now and I do not know how to deal with any of it.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
