I know that is more than this.. jak you are right that we and he would have regrets. I would have more than anyone. This problem we are having is much deeper than sex. Like I said, when we do, no problem. I am even more confused after tonights communication exercise. I am writing this now afterwords and can tell tou I wish there was a cliff to jump off nearby because I would probably be there. My own rollercoaster. I don't want to ride but I was not given a choice. I am so over this... I say that and I am crying at the same time. I wish I was so over this. Like I said before, This is about alot of different things. Not just the sex thing. Part of me just wants to say what the f. Just get over it. I am hating my life pretty bad right now. All I ever did was love him. I hate him for putting me through this. Not anything to do with the sex thing, just the other crap. I so do not understand any of this. God help me right now, because I can obviously not help myself. Why does it have to be this way?

Last edited by my_rollercoaster_ride; 09/16/05 03:14 AM.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.