Thanks for checking in on me Kitty, I know you are having a hard time right now.
I guess it isn't really about the movie or my day or anything in particular, more about the fact that I feel if I express my feelings and/or opinions (which I do often) he will always see it as negative...yet he can express his opinions and not consider it to be negative. Even when I was talking about considering a long-term sub position giving reasons why I didn't want to do it and the reasons I would...he said I was negative...ughh!!
I've also become very emotional lately regarding things I have never been too emotional about before...crying when I'm reading books or watching tv...I was sitting here and started to think that maybe that is my way of releasing my emotions (sadness) since I don't feel like I can "cry" if I'm sad about my M.
I was laying in bed last night with my arm around H thinking to myself that this isn't who I thought I was marrying...ok, initially it started because his belly is quite a bit bigger than it was, but hey, who's isn't...but it was really about who we were 10 years ago, and people change, circumstances change and we adapt...
