Thanks for the laugh, GGB. I'm in a bit of a better mood this morning, not because of anything particular good happening, but because I'm not going to wallow in her sh!t.
We did have a talk this morning. The usual pattern...I left without saying "I love you." She called, all hurt. I told her I was too busy. She acted even more hurt, and said she knew I was upset with her, why didn't I want to talk with her, yadda yadda yadda. Finally, she told me that the reason she didn't get into the tub was because I hadn't asked her about it ahead of time.
She said that I needed to "let go" and give up my expectations of what a wife should be. I told her that I had certainly gotten to the point where I had given up any expectations of what SHE would give to me. She hung up. She called back. Knowing that we weren't going to get anywhere unless I said I was sorry for hurting her, I apologized for the hurtful way I said that, but that I was definitely back at that place where I saw nothing particulary "loving" (in my definition of it) in our future.
She said that it was all within my control and that if I just "let go...." I said "fine. I have to "let go" and then our love life would be great because I would finally embrace HER definition of LOVE which involves no physical contact.
W: You would be so astounded with how wonderful our marriage could be if you weren't so afraid to give up feeling like you weren't getting what you deserved, what you wanted. H: The problem with that is you are the final judge of whether I've 'let go' enough. I've been there, and I don't like it.
