Journal Entry Friday, October 6, 2005

It's been a very hectic but very productive week at work. Lots of new sources of data and lots of new ways to improve effectiveness of my team. They are a good bunch of people, and for the most part, are very motivated, positive and eager to please. I am really very blessed for getting matched with this position. I was thinking last night on my way home, even after putting in a very long day, how great it is to enjoy going to work again! Good stuff!

I went to my local Cheers last night on the way home. SO's D15 had a swim meet, so he wasn't going to be around until later. We are developing a pattern of spending probably 5 nights out of 7 together (including sleep overs), except for the nights he has D15, which is fine with me. Considering the schedules we both keep, I'm surprised we are able to manage this. Other than traditional "date night" activities on Fri/Sat, it seems we end up arriving at each other's house around 9ish. This isn't too bad, but it's throwing off my sleeping schedule.

And here is an interesting development -- apparently at least one of the two OW SO dated while we were apart is very, very immature and perhaps a touch psychotic.

Two nights ago, I received an email (addressed to my work address b/c it's public since I'm a public employee) from an anonymous email address. In the email, they pointedly accused SO of cheating on me when we were together before the bomb.

I shared it w/SO, and he got really angry about it at first. Now he waivers between getting angry and just letting it go. To be honest, I think it's kind of funny in lots of different ways.

I've sent a couple of replies to the email, trying to ferret out which OW it is. I am also quite surprised by my own response to this.

In the past, I would have been very upset and accusatory of SO, b/c of my own insecurities. While I was initially rattled at the blatant maliciousness of it, I now readily realize two things:

1) Whichever OW is doing this, this is just really a reflection on who they are as a human being...what kind of person would do this?

2) And this is the big one -- if it were to turn out to be true, that SO had a PA while we were together before, I honestly don't think I would care. And here's why -- it's not a reflection on me. It only makes a statement about who he is, or at least was, back then.

However, I honestly don't believe it's true. Either way, it's irrelevant.

Man, how's that for a boat-load of growth in a year??? yay me!

Happy Friday, everyone!


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