I believe for a long time you both needed to step back and gain some perspective, but were afraid of the result.
I don't hear the fear anymore, but I hear sadness, resignation, loss of enthusiasm, as if you this were some final, futile guesture and you've concluded you will never see or interact with her again.
It is my belief there are feelings there, on both sides, but as you so aptly point out, there is nothing you can do for her or know what she is thinking or feeling.
