Tonight I came to a realization. I don't think it is a healthy one. I have never accepted that it's over. I know I say to others.."you have to accept that it is probably over", but I personally still think in terms of being patient until we're back together. Isn't that crazy? I'm divorced. So why have I felt confident we'd be back together eventually? This whole time, since she dropped the bomb, it's been more than hope that things would work out, it has been a feeling that it's just a matter of time. I think that explains why I have been so willing to say things like having the baby comment etc.
Does anyone/everyone else feel this way? That it's just a matter of time if we are willing to endure it?
This is a problem. I have felt impervious to hurt, but I'm not sure that's true. Despite positives in my situation, I better come to grips with the possibility that it's over. Writing this is helping, but I do need to get real.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
