Another day, another thread, another chance

[Just_Me]

Thanks guys and gals for the WOA. I guess I need them afterall. You only have my word for it, but I think positives as well and moving forward.

I know this waiting game stinks, but things could be worse.

You said it. I am the worlds worst at the waiting game. I'm so anxious for some kind of big, dramatic change that I'm not paying attention to the small gradual strides forward that seem to be bringing us closer together. The one thing I keep telling myself, almost as a mantra, is that this is how I want to be, just as I am now (maybe a little more detached from her), and she either will or won't choose to try again. I have no control over what she does.

I'm kind of antsy for some reason today. I have talked to her...I asked if she had been contacted by the surgeon's nurse and we talked about her kids and a game they enjoy. Then she later sent me an e-mail asking for a favor and also telling me the date and time she set up the appointment. I sent back asking if she wanted me to go with her to the appointment. She finally wrote back "if you want to come to the appt, that's cool. I'll leave it up to you." Not sure that's saying "yes, I want you to go."

Anyway, I've been thinking that I need to back off from AOS. I do them because I care about her, and also because I'm in a position to do them. I don't want her to think that it is solely to get her back. There isn't that kind of string attached.

Again, thanks everyone for your comments and encouragement. Sam, thanks for dropping by.