UD,

It's so nice of you to lurk and drop by. I agree with your statements about this board. It's a blessing. Just having the camaraderie helps.

I'm having a couple problems today: One, I'm having a hard time dropping the rope. Maybe Bruce was right and I felt she was pining away and now I worry that this period of darkness gives her ample opportunity to work on this strange R she's got going on. I know, no need to tell me, I have absolutely no control over it and I really don't know enough to get all stressed out. Secondly, I'm tired of this recurring, as UD would say, "virtual romance" problem. I do have control over myself and that means I'm free to make the choice that I need someone grounded in reality. In fact, that's the main conflict I feel, wanting her and not wanting her at the same time.

So my plan for the week:
Drop the rope: BE HAPPY, keep busy, enjoy my time with my kids, no calls, no snooping, go to VB on Thursday, work on my talk, take that serious look at myself and this R, use this period of angst for inspirational writing. If I do see her I will feed her LL by having a quality convo, but I absolutely refuse to seek even a small amount of physical stuff.

My long term goal is to get to the point where if she ever decides she wants a real R with me that I'm in a position to critically look at it and not just jump back in.


In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Abraham Lincoln

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt