I'm going to try and do that. But I refuse to compete with a fantasy. When this bubble breaks, if it does, there will still be some mystery that says "I love you" and for some reason, even though he's at best a liar, there will be some reason that she'll hold on to this fantasy. I've experienced it before. Even when faced with the knowledge that OP was a straight woman, she refused to believe it was a woman.
While snooping didn't help, it is a wakeup call. I need detachment and as I told Kevin, to move on. For me that doesn't mean another woman just yet. For me it means coming to understand that despite our positive interactions, that we may never be and that I still have quite a ways to go to be content and complete by myself.
Take care everyone.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
