I know how you feel. If you feel like screaming, then do it! Let it out. Just make sure others aren't watching
I have tried to move on, but realised that this isn't right for me now. I still love my EW, and I feel that getting involved w/ someone else isn't fair to that person - just my take.
The bike sounds cool. Do you ride w/ a bunch of people?
For me, going dark did wonders for myself and EW. I went dark for 4 months. It helped me to detatch, and focus on me. It also allowed her to see what life is like w/o me.
The love / hate cycles go on and on, so do what you must to get through them. Just don't hurt anyone.
Do not send a letter, or e-mail, or call telling her that you are done w/ this. Later, when you are not in a hate mode, you will regret this. I almost did the same thing, and now that the hate has passed ( for now anyway ) I'm glad that I didn't.
Keep venting here. We are all here for you, buddy. Time and patients. Just keep that in mind....
M: 35; Together 14 years - married 5.5 no children Bomb 22-JAN-2005; D a few months later First real relationship post D just ended ( 7 months ):(
