I think I am really close to telling my X I can't do this anymore. I care too much and the feelings are too deep for me to play the "justs friends" game. I want to tell her she wanted someone who held her first in their life/heart and she had it. Even if she didn't see it. I was there. I am so unhappy with where I am at emotionally. I know saying nothing would be saying something but it is not my style. If it were, I could stop my emails to her to see how her day is going and B.S. like that. I have no patience. I don't feel she is stringing me along as much as I am holding on to a dream.
I really want to vent but feel it would come out more like a turrets outbust (no offense meant to those who suffer) and break stuff. I do not think I have once, told my XW how pissed and dipleased I am with her over this. I begged and pleaded, cried, and reasoned .......
I feel like I need to be in a two week lock down to keep from doing something to reach her. I have gone 11 or 12 days a couple of times but I was busting.
I really have no reason to contact her so it makes it so much tougher than those here who have children.
Why can't she just wake up.
Jak466
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