Whenever I get S6 for two days, he usuallly spends most of the first day protesting against me/the sitch, then calms down with us enjoying the remainder of the time, with him winding up/shutting off just prior to departure. A lot of what you're experiencing is common to the visitation process. I'm sorry for you, though. I know it hurts. You and your DDs deserve each other.
I had some great thoughts about your R with Andy last night, and now I'm forgetting them. S/t about you deserving a true R with more balanced give-take, about the two of you enjoying mutual passion that most others only dream about, and the need to find deeper roots beyond that passion for true longevity. I'm sorry you're hurting right now, but keep taking care of yourself, and let him figure his stuff out.
In terms of life passing you by - Jo, you're still a baby. The 30's are the new 20's (or is it the 40s are the new 30's). Age is just a mindset, and you have a nice, flexible way of being that will help you enjoy life well into your 100's. Only you can decide how much longer to DB, but just know that your courageous struggle has not been in vain, and you'll be able to share about it to help your DDs and others more fully value Ms and Rs in their lives, as well as enrich your future Rs with this gained knowledge.
Only you can decide how much longer to DB, but just know that your courageous struggle has not been in vain, and you'll be able to share about it to help your DDs and others more fully value Ms and Rs in their lives, as well as enrich your future Rs with this gained knowledge. 