*huge hugs* Wow Jo. I miss you for a few days and everything goes all crazy on you. I think what you're going through right now is something we're all afraid of. Them finally getting it and us not knowing if we can trust them anymore to keep getting it. I'm glad you told him how you feel. Hopefully you'll both be able to come up with something that gives him space but lets you know he's not going anywhere. Hang in there my friend.